I feel as though I'm bursting with the desire to write again. I've allowed myself to get so caught up in day to day life that I've forgotten to live. I haven't written since June, so here is the synopsis of these last few months:
First and foremost I have been set free from the prison I built around myself. A beautiful girl strolled right through the walls, and has warmed my heart so purely that my passion for life has begun to thrive. I appreciate every moment that I'm with her, and those times that we are apart are just a reminder that although she doesn't define life, life is better when she's around.
Second, I have begun to let go of the bitterness that I hold in my heart towards the church and judgemental hypocritical followers. Many of these people are the way that they are because it makes them feel better about their own flaws. Some, however, are this way because they truly believe they are right, and they truly love others, wanting only what is best for them. This realization has been a hard pill for me to swallow, but the bitterness is only bringing me down.
Third, I am back into the art of creating music for the first time in years. No one could ever understand what this means to me. Although I'm not overly talented, nor am I looking to make music for a living, music is like my life blood. I breathe it, feel it, am moved by it. No other force could possibly have such an effect.
I feel as though my life has fallen into place, the way God had intended it to so long ago. For the first time in a long time, I know what I'm doing, I know where I'm going, and those things which are unkown, I have Faith that my Jesus is going to reveal those things in due time. I have been in a cold-hearted state of bleak existence for too long...
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